The Kebilsphere

Circumstances, if nothing at all, change. They may not always change for the better, and probably the first few days, weeks, months, needles, maybe even years can be the hardest apart. I am of course referring to the severance of the bond between me and Di. We parted ways on the 2nd of this June, 2007, after having known each other for exactly 6 years, and lovers for 5 1/2  yars of our relationship, but people and things change. Wait, I take that back, people don’t really change, but realtionships sure do

Actually, the first few days after we sepearatedI left her ally easy. I ate a lot, slept constantly, and had not a care in the world, actually I think I had a sum total of seven thoughts and feelings over those days, less than I usually would have had while eating a bowl of porridge. My body and brain was devoid of thoughts and feelings. I don’t know where my mind and heart went, I have a feeling they either slipt into a coma, were in the drunk tank without me, were just ignoring me, or hoping I would go away so they could come back at a later time.  

It reminded me a lot of alose those times I was on the methadone program, the last time being (for the fourth time) in November through January. Talk about being comfortably numb, confortably dumb was what . Sure, I was  incomprehnsible, I could only mumle in nonsense syllables that made no sense whatsoever. And even I did not know what I was talking about. Full blown hallucinations, delusions, some sot of toxic psychosis. So that was how I managed to avoid this past Christmas season, my wife’s birthday, New Years eve, and all for what, we still don’t know what went so wrong with my head

 Well, so ends my first blog, I think I shall call it my blob rather than a blog. We will see if I can keep it up and actually stick with something as reveealn as alprofitl